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strength in waiting...

waiting requires conscious strength... strength to just wait for things to happen.. as i was going through my days, i realized that i hated waiting.. waiting isn't fun... waiting is being unsure.. and nobody ever likes being unsure of what is going to happen.. the same applies to the spiritual life... as i sit and think, i've always been the one who initiates and respond at the same time when it comes to the waiting season... waiting for matt frustrates me at times.. waiting for bus irritates me.. waiting waiting waiting.. i loathe waiting.. but let's face it, i still have to wait... i need to wait in order to grow according to the plans that are laid out for me.. i need to wait for people to rise up (okay, i don't like this either) i need to wait for mom to cook (oops, not related) i need to wait.. basically, it dawns upon me that i need a lot of conscious strength in order to wait... and i find it hard to actually ask for strenght.. and that makes me s t a g n a n t... ahh.. sometimes facts like these can just hit you straight in the face...


youth sunday came and is now gone... to me, i was really stressed up because i was struggling internally.. struggling so much that i (again) find it hard to just sit down and cry... i don't like to cry out loud to God.. i dont' like the idea of going back to God everytime i'm in a pit.. but again, i doubt that God hates the idea of me going back... band practice, mime practice; all these practices that sometimes feels empty to me.. what was i doing? what was i thinking? but then again, God has His own plans.. as i struggle to not be involved, God brought them through all the practices.. He was present even when i was weak.. who knew i was struggling? who knew that i felt like giving up? who knew that my weak character in leadership is swallowing me up? okay, this sounds very NEGATIVE.. but i seldom share these feelings right? youth sunday, i pray that it was a success in God's eyes.. people growing, people being changed..

oh, u can watch the presentation on youtube, thanks to JT.. :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UVQqlN6W98M&feature=player_embedded


Terminator Salvation is NOT NICE! Fine, someone commented me as slow in picking up the storyline, but still! it is not as good as everybody say it is! stop exaggerating! fine, the cgi and all are a bit cool, but the story line... >.<>.<>.<>