what a day

sigh... a very stressful week and day even though i was dead bored in the office...

why? well, there's this whole issue with the new _ _ _ _ _ _ at home that made me freak out after hearing the amount of $$ needed to pay monthly by my daddy who is 60 yrs old this year!! @_@ and not only for this year, but a lot more years to go!!! what for?! this really made me stressed up a lot... it even made me argue with my siblings because of this issue... real arguement... something i really really hated doing... but i really couldn't believe the fact that they supported and encouraged my dad to do such a silly act... i got yelled at by my _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ [random amt of blank lines] too.... :( i'm super super super sad...

then there's this whole thing with the orphanage... i'm sad loh... really really sad and i wasn't given a chance to actually share this when i really needed to... i was pushed from one responsibility to another without having the chance to rest... dah lah i wasn't 'feeling' well today... seriously, today is not a good day... though i thank God for answering my certain prayer, but still... i'm still sad...

and yoo know what?! i get to eat my first meal just now at 9pm... my FIRST meal of the day!!! i am the type of person who loves to eat.. but because of stress, i get affected and i won't be able to eat... and i only get to eat the first meal at 9pm!!! i drank teh ais (1.30pm), 1 packet of laici drink (4.30pm), and also 1 can of 100plus (6pm) before eating my meal (9pm)... and i used up a LOT energy today... part of it went to me being stressed up, angry, frustrated, part of it went to the whole shouting at the orphanage; because the kids were really noisy and naughty and also the fact where NOT a SINGLE guy helped make the situation better (i'm losing my voice due to the shouting) and part of it went to the whole practice for youth sunday...

i'm tired and sad lar... :(
to make things worst, on the way back home, while i was driving, my mp4 died on me... and my radio which is connected to my mp4 went totally cukooo... :(

what a day.. what a day...
well people, i'm tired too... can i just back out from my responsibilities like what you guys did??
i once heard someone say, Never say you want to take a break...
i feel like dying... i feel crushed...

ps: due to sweat, i got rashes all over me now... see!! what a day!!!

thought of more things to complain: 1) i didn't finish even half of my first meal because i was too tired from the walking, driving and shouting...

2) i went to carrefour today to get food for the visitation to the orphanage and i had no idea what to buy at all.. budget? no idea at all.. don't even know whether claimable or not.. whatever lar.. just wanna get it over and done... walked to the snacks and realized i needed a basket at all.. walked to the front again to get a basket, took 25 pkts of tiger biscuit (healthy living for kids), choc waffles, and more biscuits... wondered whether i need to buy drinks and called to ask, no proper instructions given, phone went dead without a proper 'bye'... i dislike bad phone conversations.. no proper 'hi', no proper 'bye' pisses me off.. i told that to my mom once and she stopped doing that... and that was done to me again for 2 days in a row.. sad leh? went to the drinks section, looked around for milk.. too expensive, and walked to the packet drinks section... crap, no trolley.. how to take? tried to call guys, nobody could make it... another reason to be pissed off.. carried 1 tray of 24 packet drinks to the scanning area to check price because no price tag, realised that stupid thing isn't working! checked my purse, rm 75 max... 1 tray of drink sure not enough... carried the 1 tray of drinks and food in a BASKET to the cashier and ran to the drinks area to get the other tray... back hurt like mad! thoracic scoliosis isn't fun people.. drink anlene and take care of your health now... prayed hard that everything will be under RM 75 and thanked God when it showed RM 71+.. payed and asked for a trolley from the worker.. Hallelujah! he brought one for me even though intially he told me there isn't any trolley left... ran to my car and drove to church... took my normal shortcut and realised indah water blocked the road! >.<>.<

3) got yelled at for wanting to enter my own room... >.<

i'm watching 爱就宅一起 (toGETher) staring: RAINIE YANG and JIRO WANG... well, i'm not into jiro... he reminds me of a pig actually.. no offence... but i like to see him in this series... :p anyone got any taiwan series that u can lend me?!! i wanna watch lar!!!! :p