falling short

december isn't fun for me...

though i have always looked forward to december for christmas, this year, december seems to be a burden for me...

with everything going on, i can't seem to be able to balance life anymore...

i think that since i'm under the hallyu wave now, that became my escapism..

when i'm sad, i go to them..

when i'm happy, i laugh wit them..

it does make me feel more lonely...

haha.. my public confession of falling short...

december has never been this lonely before..

(help?)

matt won't be around all the time because of work...

family is one of the happy things that keeps me 'sane' at times (when there are no arguements of course)

yf... church... i'm feeling the urge to run....

work... is work.. nothing sane about this...

thankful to God for bringing me through it all? yes...

but a part of me just wan to stay low now...

a huge part of me that is...